Life in Mono

Hari 1 hari 2 dan uda banyak hari hari lainnya yang uda gua lewatin semenjak gua stay di kota kelahiran gua, Malang. Ga banyak yang berubah dari kota ini, tetep sama kaya sebelom gua tinggal ke Sydney, yah well mungkin ada kemajuan sana sini, tapi tetep Malang selalu seperti yang ada di kenangan gua, kota yang kecil sejuk, banyak makanan favorit gua dan orang2 nya yang kenal satu sama lain.

Bukannya gua melupakan tempat asal gua and jadi sok semenjak gua pernah tinggal di kota gede, tapi emang situasi yang bikin gua ga bisa and ga happy di sini. Satu hal yang ga bisa gua ceritain secara detail di sini which is family matter, singkatnya gua juga uda cape dengan masalah demi masalah yang ga selesai2 and kayanya semuanya dibebanin ke gua meanwhile gua berasa ini bukan tanggung jawab gua and lebih mencangkup ke banyak pihak. Kalo liat orang laen kayanya they have a better life, tapi gua sadar tiap orang or family punya masalah sendiri jadi gua berasa sabar aja.

Lately, gua ga sesibuk biasanya, lebih relax, pulang kerja (mencari nafkah demi sesuap nasi) trus di rumah aja ngetem di kamar kesayangan gua. Dan gua lebih banyak mikir dari biasanya dan end up feeling lonely, sepi gitu rasanya. Pengen kadang pulang ada yang diajak ngobrol ato sekedar tuker pikiran, tapi ga da yang bisa gua ajak ngomong literally. Orang rumah ga mungkin gua ajak becanda ala gua dan teman2 biasanya, and often kalo cerita ama bonyok end up bete2 an, jadi yah males aja mending mind my own business.
Hal2 laen, ada yang terlalu kepo, nanyain ini itu sampe yang ga seharusnya diomongin, or mengulang2 hal yang sama sampe eneg gua dengernya. Bener2 ga ada yang bisa ngertiin gw or accept my idea or paling ngga being supportive tapi malah either judgemenal ato kasi vonis, jadi lu mesti gini gitu ini yang terbaik demi elu bla bla bla. I just can't be myself here and semua yang gua lakuin ato omongin selalu salah. Makannya jangan salahin gua kalo sekarang misalkan gua jadi cuek, diem, berkesan ga peduli and even lose my faith, itu karena gua uda bener2 capek and i let all do what they want and still that's not enough to make them happy.

Mungkin sekarang ini saat2 tersulit gua, the biggest dilemmas; it's about the future, dimana gua harus bisa ambil keputusan terbaik untuk nentuin hidup gua ke depannya. Gua sendiri kalo ditanya apa yang gua mau, gua ga bisa jawab exactly what i want, karena situasi yang ga mendukung juga. Semua kayanya buntu and hopeless, tapi gua berusaha cari jalan keluar dengan usaha keras dan menjalani yang terbaik saat ini. Gua berharap soon gua uda bisa tau jawabannya and menemukan jalan yang terbaik buat gua. Ga gampang, i know ditambah dengan phase yang harus gua jalanin moving on and stuff, but i always remember what my friend told me "someday soon" grace you can .....

Tapi gua selalu bersyukur gua memiliki teman2 yang baik and ga sekedar baik tapi terbaik untuk gua. Sayangnya semua nun jauh di sana, Eddie, Desta, Lin, Ci yen, Ahin, sodara2 gw Jessie and Michael ex housemate gua yang lucu2 weny and vivi. Dan masi banyak temen2 gua yang ngga dimention di sini semuanya berarti sendiri di hati gua. Mereka ini lah yang paling bisa ngertiin gua, menerima gua apa adanya, and selalu mendukung and ada disisi gua di saat gua happy and paling down sekalipun. Gua ga tau gimana kalo ga ada kalian. Dan gua berharap gua juga berarti yang sama buat mereka. Teman2 yang ada di indo juga ga kalah supportive, kaya si riki yang bawel2 suka marahin gw, budi, awank, martin, din2, marini, vercy, cousin2 gw yang suka kasi2 nasehat. I love you guys so muchhhhh

Every phone call, message, itu berarti buat gua, jadi ga nyesel punya bb and maksain semua teman2 pake bb, jadi gampang berkomunikasi (tuh company mesti terima kasi ama gua, uda gua promosiin abis2an). Berkat bb, berasanya jauh di mata dekat di bb. Teman2 yang di sydney yang tiap berapa period always checking on me, ngirim foto2 konyol, recording suara2 nyanyian lin yang lumayan mengerikan hehehe, ato pegorbanan nelpon beratus2 kali demi good reception tapi tetep susah, ya kan die. Gua bener2 kangen dengan temen2 gua ini, they are really my family.

And buat sister gua, kalo pas lu baca ini, gua ga ngerti kenapa kita mesti begini. Gua cuma mo bilang kalo gua juga pengen dingertiin, gua ga peduli lo ngomong gua manja, egois, yah gua juga punya perasaan ! Mungkin gua punya salah sama elu yang bisa bikin lu bete ama gua. Tapi lo tau ga, di saat2 kemaren ini, elu tuh orang yang paling gua perluin and ngerti keadaan gua and lo anggep gua ini apa? Banyak banget yang pengen gua ceritain, curhatin, and omongin ke elu tapi semuanya ga kesampean. Di saat2 pas gua ancur2 nya kemaren ini elu menghilang. Ya uda gpp fine, gua uda belajar dari pengalaman2 kemaren, gua sekarang uda bisa lebih mandiri and ga bergantung sama elu, kalo itu yang elu harepin dari gua, uda kesampean. Perasaan gua ke elu ga bakalan pernah berubah, again engga bakalan berubah, every word every sentence and all that i ever said to you i always meant it. Gua selalu sayang ama elu, gua care ama lo, gua berusaha lebih ngertiin elu and nerima segala keputusan yang elu ambil. Just so u know, from that moment i knew something like this gonna happen soon or later, something that i scared most would happen and yes it happened, but that never make me regret or anything, i grow stronger and learn to accept things and i hope u feel the same way too. Love you, with all my heart i do

Buat temen2 gua, thanks uda nasehatin gua, and im doing what you guys told me, make myself busy. I did, by making lots of stuff, one of them is this blog, another project, business plans (yang ini moga2 cepet kesampean yahhhh).

Guys, i miss you so much, tau ga si rasanya when u miss someone so much and there's nothing you could do sigh......................i hope you guys do well and we meet up soon and having all our routines again.

- Lotsssa hugs and kisses -

Thank You Note

Special thanks to my friend Eddie aka koolemo who has willingly updating and editing my owl-hugger blog. Without him as an editor this blog would not be as great as it looks now. I know this is such a short note however this is to show my gratitude to whom that had already gave positive inputs and great ideas, i realized it's involved hardwork, art and patience. Again thank you editor.

Sincerely

the owl-hugger ^______^

The US Trip and all the travels

Starting of the year 2009, I’ve been travels quite a lot; by a lot I mean seriously lots. As such, I had almost 20 flights in less than a month. However, from all the travels some has special memories.

One of them is the US trip (June 8^th – 24^th)

My holiday itinerary starts with an early flight to Singapore at 6.15 am from Jakarta, we’re a group of eight, and they are my grandma, my uncle’s fams (his wife and their kids).

Everything was as good and subtle as it planned, until we had to rush to the next flight and my cousin had to smoke somewhere and long story one of my cousin was missing when we supposed to board to Tokyo and we missed that flight. Really, at that time I don’t even able to get pissed because everyone already so pissed. Fortunately, after a very long discussion with the Singapore Airline crew, we can transfer to the next flight which is the next day and we stay over Singapore that night.

FYI we decided to leave our luggage at the airport so imagine I have nothing to wear for tomorrow and I have to buy new clothes and since ours are promotion ticket we have to buy the whole new ticket return (lucky we can just pay the fee which is US$ 150/head) better than buy the new one but still.

The next day we’re finally heading off to LA, the flight to Narita, Tokyo was 9.40 am. We’re telling my cousin thousand times where the exact gate and time so the yesterday incident would never happen ever again. That was a six hours flight and I spend most of it watching movies. Then we transfer to another flight and LA here I come ….. (a long long flight).

DAY 1

Arriving at LAX airport, my cousin who supposed to graduate in a few days picked us up and after an hour drive we got to Irvine, where he and my aunt live. I was so sleepy and jet lag however I need to stay awake to suit with the local time. We head off to a Korean mall and have lunch and drop all the luggages. My aunt asked me to join her to pick up her daughter (one of my American cousin) from child care and looking around some more. Nice town and scenery, lots of hills and the weather were pretty chilly (it supposes to be summer). At dinner time my uncle have a bbq welcome party for us, there were lots of foods - fillet mignon and steaks and we went to the yoghurt place called Yogurtland (yummy) and then home and sleep.

DAY 2

We spent the whole day shopping at the Cabazon (branded factory outlet) this place is definitely heaven on earth. I bought several bags and accessories and went home with a huge smile on my face. Today we have breakfast in a place called iHop (the best pancake in town, but I choose burger instead) and a really nice Japanese ramen for dinner.

DAY 3

We went to Universal Studio in LA, riding all the rides with funny story; we went to the amusement thingy named House of Horror, the ads say “you’ll get really close with the scary creature GET READY!!!)

And I was so surprised when the 1^st thing was a white monster that run and hit us, I was screaming and my cousin accidentally farted. We were laughed so hard and too bad for the white monster, the people must be wondering who the F is farting !!! and then we went for a little shopping and taking pictures and we continue to Beverly Hills and straight home.

DAY 4

Marvin’s Graduation (congratulations to my cousin) you finally made it. I met and old online friend and the graduation itself kinda remind me of mine a year ago. My cousin has a banquet at night in a nice restaurant named “Little Italian” nice food and meets some of his friends.

DAY 5 – 6

4 hours driving to Las Vegas, it’s really a nice place with all the lights on the street.

All the hotels, Venetian, Caesar Pallace, Bellagio, Paris, buffet, casinos, I will definitely come back here someday.

We stayed at Trumph Hotel (nice and quite since it a bit further from the main road).

Day 7 - 8

Around 9 am, we’re driving back to Irvine coz we have a late flight that night to Orlando. We had breakfast at McDonalds and that time I was starting to hate junk food so much. I miss “pecel” back home. To get to Orlando we had three flights, first stop at Charlotte then Phoenix, and Orlando. Each flights around 4 hours, 6 hours and 1 hour. Orlando was really hot and it 4 hours in advance than LA. Imagine we haven’t got quite sleep and straight to the Hotel and Disneyland. Finally, my dream since I were a child came true – my first time on Disneyland and meet Mickey Mouse.

A really hot afternoon followed by a sudden thunderstorm, too bad I didn’t take any picture at the magic kingdom while wearing the micky mouse raincoat. Funny story: at the 3D movies one of my cousins, the little one want to pee during the session, I was so stress when he said” I want to pee NOW!!!” There’s nothing I could do but hand in a half full of bottled water and the next thing I won’t say it here, but I’m sorry for the cleaning guy (im so sorry). The incident still continue with the kids that keep doing number 2 all the way in Disneyland, why why why? Anyway lots of cool rides there, I wish all my friends were there it would be so much fun. Someday I come back here.

DAY 9

A short flight to Washington DC, before I could finally enjoy a night in New York. It was a rainy season when I got there. We stayed at Centre Loop Hotel in Manhattan, it close by the Times Square and very crowded. I feel like I’m in the movie with all the NY routines. 1^st day in NYC - Empire State Building.

DAY 10 – 11

Bronx and Brooklyn (find a cab to get there is harder than I thought, we had lunch at a steakhouse (my cousin has to book 5 months earlier) I forgot the name of the restaurant and it is the best steak I ever had.

• Soho (I found a cute hippies shop)
• Saks Fifth Avenue
• Liberty Tower
• Museum of Natural History.

That’s pretty much about NYC

DAY 12 - 13

Chicago, it kinda reminds me of Sydney; the weather, surroundings, suburbs. It nice stays in a calmer place after spent 3 days with bunch of kids in NY. We went to lots of museums there and aquarium (where I see the real Anaconda) and been in the real US submarine that used during the war. We tried the best pizza, from the thinnest up to the thickest and it was real nice.

Day 14 – 15

Back to Irvine, then the next day back to Indonesia (another long flight back home).

Overall, the trip was fun since it is my first trip in States and again it’s free. However, the schedule was too packed and tiring, we visit to many states in a little time. But then, again it is a great experience with all the new stuff for me- driving on the other side of the road, so many coins with different values, using different measures, new people and places. Someday I’ll come back here hopefully with my lovely friends or boyfriend or husband or even better with my very own family.

----------------end of the trip------------------

Ps: I bought small owl stuff in Japan (during the stopover) here is the pic

Bundy On

Let's be Green !

Bundanoon is located on the southern boundary of the Southern Highlands where the manicured paddocks, hedges and gardens give way to the rugged beauty of Morton National Park known for its deep gorges, gullies and wide array of flora and fauna.
The area was known to the original aboriginal inhabitants as a 'place of deep gullies', and the interpretation of this word by the European settlers was Bundanoon. The village is only a few minutes from easily accessible lookouts where one can view the striking views along the spectacular sandstone escarpments.

Notes: Thumbs up to Bundanonn - The Australia's first bottled water free town, the world's first environmentally water conscience town
visit www.bundanooon.com.au

We Once Were One

We Once Were One

The day that we first met,in my mind I still see, you sitting in the lunch room, looking for some company

I alone myself, sat down with you that day, neither of us knowing what the hell to say

But we got through the ackward times and quickly came to be the best of friends to each other, we could ever be

The closer we grew, the more we left the other world behind, just me and you we jumped into a new place totally blind

We prayed together our friendship forever, and always would stay the same

but time passed, only memories last, and little friendship remains

We once were one! I screamed at you, I want my best friend back !!!!!

Bet we both realized at once it was that bond we lacked

you think it does not hurt me, to see us back to two, looking

to my left and right too see there is no you

But we both are moving on now,

lets do it gracefully

I hope our friendship still lives on

in your memory

Dear Mr.X

Before I give you hope, I will show you what my heart looks like

and now, tell me how to mend this broken heart. If there anyone know how to fix something that completely ruined and no words may describe how much it hurts. I don't think it can be built anymore

cause the one thing has become completely nothing. However, thanks for bring me the spirit and laughter, but as you see, that no one or even myself would be able to fill the heart again, not now or maybe someday but i don't know when.

Old & New

As the owlhugger a new blog for me, I’ll start with a comparison between my old and new life in general.

My old life, back to Sydney where everything was easier and happier

• Uni life, with the assignments, group meetings, exams, uncountable essays and many sleepless nights. No matter how much people or even myself sworn upon these things, I do love schooling.


• Lame nights, where me and my favorite cousin aka roommate doing exactly nothing at home but online or watching tv and decided to our usual place worldsquare or woolies to buy or just look around the grocery stuffs or walking around city, it’s pathetic but I miss those timesss really T__T


• Late supper, it could be anything or being creative by make some stuff hehe and then let my roommate to try it


• Again, since I have other extras roommates (I won’t mentioned it here cuz it's simply too many and again I should “behave” here) we had many “tradition” that we usually do. One of them is talking till God knows what time before we fall asleep in my beloved sofa bed (tired with all the gossiping). Dinner all together, sitting on the floor, in front of the tv (with different varieties of food, woolies chicken, my cooking, etc etc)


• Weekend rituals – Saturday (waking up really early and then go to the market With my lovely “sister”, find a new café, second hand accessories, oohhhhhhh goshhhhhh bring me back to those timess) and then Sunday church, lunch, a little shopping and we usually spend most of the days sleeping.


• Movie Night (Tuesday) the ticket is cheaper and everyone should make their schedule free to go to the cinema.


• Shopping Night (Thursday) even if you don’t have money, it is a must to go out and shop no matter what, the usual place – Centre point and Myer (Witchery, Peter Alexander, SES, Valley Girl, JeansWest, Spotsgirl, General Pants, Susan, Mimco and many more of Australian Store)


• The weekend gateway, and cultural night where we eat, gossip, and laugh till out brain burst out.


• And lastly, the most important thing that make Sydney “home” to me is my friends that have been more than a family to me and they are really home to me and only with you guys I can be ME.


• PS: every corner of these place have certain memories for me (UTS, Broadway, Newtown, Glebe, Opera House, Circular Quay, Market City, Bondi, Paddington, Martin Place, TownHall, City, and Kogarah).
  

The latest and current lifestyle, (please…dunt make it my new life but rather a tempory phase)

• Wake up early (6.30 am) as well as go to bed early (9pm and if im lucky, I can make it to 11pm) what a shame!!!


• Working my ass off (deal with numbersssss… sounds impossible but it is seriously happening)


• Finish work at 4.30 pm then straight to home, maybe groceries shopping on the way home and luckily, if some relatives or friends visit me, I can hang out a bit in Malang (big sigh)


• And then my favorite part, lay in my bed watching my favorite series or go online with the very disturbing speed and connection.


• Making long distance phone calls, coz mostly my friends are far far always from here.

So far I can survive, but then again this is not the best but the only way I should take. I’m trying to take the positive side, in indo there are several things that I could do such as:

· Spa (meni,pedi, all different kind of treatment from head to toe)
· Healthy food (don’t have to think about the money to spend to buy it)
· Mbak (who will take care of everything)
· Money (it’s always there)
and what mostly people would say a family .... (eric cartman voice)

But again, right now I just go with flow; as my good friend told me that someday soon I’ll get and be exactly what I want and I just pray that day will come real soon. I miss all my friends very much, I wish I could turn back the time and be with you guys like the way we used to be. However, rather than keep dreaming, I know and realize that now is
the time to change to be more serious and focus with the future.

Introducing the owlhugger

The Owlhugger

New life, new place, and i suppose a new blog for me too. I will introduce my new blog Owlhugger since i've been fancy the owl with no specific reason and the word hugger came from the treehugger, you guys must be familiar with it or hopefully start to know it. From now on, this blog will be my "junk" place where i can throw away all my feelings whether it's good or bad. My old account is now officialy closed since it never been updated and i found it really chilldish or perhaps this blog is more childish but i don't really care coz again it's a "junk" that will be filled with lots and lots of my stuff.